I’ve been dealing with a lot of pain and over-all depression lately. Every workout seems like the worst one so far. I’ve been dragging myself out of bed in the morning and getting through my workouts by the skin of my teeth. It hasn’t been fun…in fact it’s been terrible! But I’ve worked out every morning in 2018, and I don’t want to stop. So, what to do?
I don’t know. I feel like I’m at the end of my rope, but I do get up and carry on. It may not be “pretty”, but I’m getting it done. The main thing that’s changed is that a family member said some very hurtful, nasty things to me just a few weeks ago, and those comments seem to have seeped into my marrow and stuck with me. Emotional and verbal abuse will do that. Initially I seemed okay, but as time has gone on the comments are running in a loop inside my head. Of course, the best way to combat this is to consider the source. This individual is not considered a person to take anything he says to heart. His main purpose in life is to make others feel badly about themselves. I am not the only person he does this to, and this is just what he does. I can’t change him, but I can counteract these comments with what I know is true.
So I’m saying my affirmations twice daily (as opposed to only once a day), and focusing on my own stuff right now. I’m trying to replace the negative inside my mind with the positive. And, I am stubbornly gritting my teeth and getting it done. It’s a daily struggle but I’m doing it. The worst thing would be to give up and let the depression take over. So, if you’re in the same place, keep going. Do your own thing, and try try try to remain positive. Focus on you and what positive actions you can take.