I had a birthday this week and I have to admit, I had a tiny pity party. It revolved around the question “is this all there is”? I started thinking about all the things I haven’t done. This, of course, is a long list, and is guaranteed to make me depressed. Not that other things could also make me depressed – being another year older; feeling like an ancient old crone when I first get out of bed in the morning; realizing that I’ll probably never ride naked on the back of a motorcycle through the woods – you know, the normal, average everyday thoughts of someone who is getting older.
So, I decided that I had to do something proactive about my little pity party. I didn’t want it to go any further. I’m making a list of all the things I want to do before I get “too old” to do them. Then, I want to figure out which ones are truly feasible. To tell you the truth, I really don’t think that riding a motorcycle naked through the woods is going to happen. For one thing, I don’t have a motorcycle, for another, just think of all the obstacles I could get hit by.
After I finish with my actual list, I’m going to look at them one-by-one and figure out how I can make them happen. As always, moving forward is much better than looking back. I can’t change the past, but can influence my future.
For now, I’ll continue claiming to be ten years younger than I am. Remember, you’re only as old as you believe yourself to be!